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I wrote this in my checkbook while I was high earlier today. I just kind of remembered about it. It's a true story.




With my periphery,
I looked through the door frame into the kitchen
And saw a man
Who carried a sling shot in his back pocket
When he was a boy.




The United States of Leland made me really sad.
Shaun of the Dead made me feel really happy

Read the following entry as if it were the monolgue of Victor in Rules of Attraction. This is a true account of my last night and morning. It is in no way fabricated. It is totally fucked up.


Went to K-zoo.
Got to Timmy's, met his boys, watched them skateboard on a coffee table.
Bought a 1/5 of Vodka and walked to a party.
There was a strob light.
Drank a lot. Met some kid who looked like the guy from Garden State but skinner, faux hawk, weird teeth.
Spoke flueant Spanish for the first time with this guy who was in Chile for the last year.
Timmy puched a hole in the door.
Split from Timmy and Theresa, went to some apartment with Garden State to smoke dope.
Went to his apartment, passed out on the couch, woke up in a sleeping bag.
His cat attacked me, I threw it, it came back again and hit me, I threw it at a wall.
Woke Garden State up, asked where Timmy lived, said he didn't know.
Stole his hoddie, coat, and the money in the coat and started walking.
Walked through k-zoo in the snow for 2 hours.
Found a party store, bought cigs with stolen money. Found a bagle place, bought breakfast with stolen money.
Walked for another hour, found a pay phone.
Went into a bathroom and dryed my socks and put paper in my shoes.
Couldn't feel my hands or feet.
Found another pay phone.
Called my mom, started crying, some guy asked if I wanted to use his cell phone, sat at a bible study in the coffee shop.
My mom called the Sheriff, he picked me up, we looked for the house together based on landmarks I thought I saw the night before.
Climed in Timmy's kitchen window.
Started crying, took of my pants (which were frozen at the cuffs) and made Theresa hold me.
When I fuck up I really fuck up.
From 7am to noon I was homeless and smelled like a hippie.

I have been such a bad lj-er. My roomate lost her job and although I love her the bills still have to be paid so I picked up an extra job. 3 Yes 3 jobs. I just can't keep this up. Either I find a cheaper apt for just myself or I end up back home with my parents.


2005 you can get better any day now

<3flinn

I'm back. I haven't had the internet because my roomate is a hag and forgot to pay the bill. Finally they turned it back on so hopefully I'll be updating more often. Christmas break has been wonderful and exactly what I needed. I dread going back to school but there is always spring break. Tonight I'm going out with YaVonne and Katie to see closer. Just a girls night before break is over for good! Yuck

<3FLINN

I have recovered from new years, I had a BLAST. I'll post pictures tommorow , right now Im too lazy to do so and the Bounty hunter is on :)

I hate chapped lips



<3flinn

I have no problem saying goodbye to 2004 in fact I couldn't be more exstatic.


<3flinn

BE SAFE TONIGHT EVERYONE!

I woke up this morning with my hot face on the cold bathroom floor, obviously paying the price for a blur of a night. I could'nt tell you what happend after 9pm. This has got to stop Flinn.

and I mean it, not just because my head is the size of california, and my stomach is a carosel in motion.

I am going to lay down and hopefully sleep until next week.

goodnight all and to all a goodnight

<3flinn

Because Im sure everyone wanted to know my kissing buisness

Bold what is true
I have kissed someone:

on the cheek.
on the lips.
on their hands or fingers.
in my room.
in their room.
of the same sex.
of the opposite sex.
related to me.(in a family kind of way)
younger then me.
older than me.
with jet black hair.
with curly hair.
with blonde hair & blue eyes.
with flaming red hair.
with straight hair.
smaller/shorter than me.
bigger/taller than me.
with a lip ring.
who was drunk.
who was high.
who I had just met.
who was homosexual.(in a friend way)
who I didn't really want to kiss.
on a holiday.
who was going out with someone close to me.
who was my good friend's brother or sister.
who had been/is in jail.
in a graveyard.
at a show/concert.
at the beach.
in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water.
who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
with dyed hair.
with a shaved head.
who was/is my good friend.
who was/is in a band.
who has tattoos.
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain.
in another continent besides where I was born.
with an accent.
with an std.
on a boat.
in a car/taxi/bus.
on a plane.
at the circus/carnival.
with a missing body part.
in the movies.
eskimo style.


I should have just bolded what wasnt true. Damn Im a kissing hoe!

<3flinn

I want to be kissed now!

ugh

why do left overs always seem

to taste like aluminum foil?

<3flinn

i fell in love w/ a rockstar

too bad he didnt fall in love with me

<3sage francis<3

img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v257/shehabla807/Promote_Adam.jpg">

STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM
I wont put myself on the soapbox no I won't, but let me, let you, in on this little bit...
your pretentious mindset, wrapped in parties and prada will never be enough for him.
you do not and will not deserve him, so stop trying.
he is worth more
than your pointy fucking shoes.



Hm? my christmas was good besides that :D how was everybodys?

<3FLINN

i hate her.
and her pink fucking hair.
and the fact that she looks like a sad attempt at scenester.
as a result of it, i now officially hate blue eyes.
and band teeshirts ordered offline and storebought from hottopic.
i hate snake bites.
and frizzy hair.
as well as cheap eyeliner and dumb jokes.
i hate cheezy song quotes left as screen names.
as well as HIGH CONTRAST photos and cheap smiles.
i hate the letter c as well as the other 4 that follow it.
i hate that she was there. at the wrong time in the wrong place.
and that they both lied.
and it makes me want to vomit.
not because i want what she has, but because what she has is not what she's ever truly wanted.
i hate references to her, as well as quotations.
i hate that she physically embodies everything im not.
and most of all i hate that i cant really hate her at all.
shes just some random, dumb, half-way decent conversationalist failed attempt at scenester, that happened to come along.
and id hate her if i could you know.
but i cant.
because i cant.

in other news MERRY CHRISTMAS

<3FLINN

Snow is God's shit

This im quite certain of

in fact I'm positive.

FUCK SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!

im in love with sage francis

thats all

<3flinn